Today is my birthday, I am officially 23 years old. It is hard to believe I am 23 already. I feel so old. Well, physically ( for the most part ) and mentally I don't feel old. In fact mentally I still feel like I am still around 18. I often times find myself forgetting that I am in fact an adult, and that I should no longer be surprised when someone at the store calls me maa'm. Then again, people still confuse me for that 18 year old ( or 13 year old ) that I still feel inside.
It is strange to think back to when I was a kid, and how I thought 23 seemed so far away. The years seemed to have flown by. If I had all the years of my life stored on file, upon review, a sort of metamorphosis would be seen. It is crazy how much you can change over the years, but no matter what you will always have a part of you that stays the same. I was a highly competitive little tomboy who was always trying to keep up with my brother, and be like one of the boys. ( short haircut and all ) Yea, I pretty much lived half my life as a boy. I often times find myself wanting to erase these years and pretend they never existed but I still find myself taking pride in being able to out-run my husband, or just kick his ass in Mario Kart. My competitive nature has no limits. ( Is that bad? )
Looking back I probably didn't expect to be where I am today. Sometimes I wish to be more accomplished but I realize that I have accomplished many things. They may not be as apparent to others, but I feel them in my heart. There are many things left I would like to accomplish, and I hope to have many years left to accomplish them. I have a feeling that year 23 will be an adventurous one with many ups, and downs. There are many unknowns, but for now, I welcome year 23 with open arms.
I love that I get to be a part of your life. I am so thankful that I was able to be in town with you for your 23rd birthday. It has been so fun being your brother, and it has been a lot of fun watching you grow up. I think sometimes I get a more drastic view of how you're evolving into 'you' because I am not able to be with you as often, so when I am, the growth seems more drastic.
ReplyDeleteI have to admit, it's been tough not have been able to be around as much when you were finishing up high school, with all the sports, and as you have become the health conscious, nutrition knowledgeable, fitness expert, running machine person you are now. Even not getting to be around as much as you and Eric were first meeting and as you have been forming your marriage has been bittersweet, because I know you can do it on your own, but I haven't been able to really be a part of it, other than hearing from you over the phone or online from time to time.
All in all, I love that no matter where I or you live, we will always have each other and we will always be brother and sister. Thanks for all the 23 years of memories, and I know we'll have tons more to share together. I love you sister, you're awesome.
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Brother, thank you so much for always being there for me. Even though you are on the other side of the country most of the time, you have still always been there for me :) Maybe one day we will be able to live in the same state again...or perhaps even the same town!
ReplyDeleteI am super sad you are leaving tomorrow :( Come back for my 24th? Or actually come back for my 23 and 1/2? Or sooner? :)
I agree with Amber....come back forever, I wish.
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