Living

Yesterday I did something I haven't done in years. I went skateboarding. I know, you are probably wondering.."Aren't you a little old for that?" or as my mom put it "you are going back to that huh?" Well no, I am not "going back to that" but I am going back to living life. Looking back I am starting to realize that at some point I stopped truly living and just started going through the motions of life. I was on autopilot and failed to realize it until now.

Life is getting real. In the past I got caught up in how I thought "I should" be living. I hung up my skateboard and got married. I thought that is what you do when you become an adult...you stop having fun and "grow up". Little did I know that not only is there room for fun in your adult life, but it is a necessity. What is the point of life if you can't have any fun? For the first time in a long time, I put all my worries aside and headed to the skatepark with my old skate buddy Ben. Holy high school memories.

I may not be the skater I once was, but going skateboarding yesterday held so much more meaning than it used to. The piece of wood that was under my feet felt a little foreign at first, but I could still control it, just as I realized I had re-gained control of my life. Yep, I am a 25 year old woman on a skateboard.... so what?

I never really knew what it felt like to live life in the moment. I was always looking forward or backwards, but now, I think it is pretty safe to say that I am living life in the moment and the possibilities seem endless. I am excited about life. I am still learning from the past, but I am enjoying the present, and excited for the future.