It has been a year since I returned home from Germany. It's been a crazy one, but I survived...and when I say survived, I mean that I am no longer living life just going through the motions. I can feel again. I guess you could say I was numb... numb to both good, and bad feelings. That being said, everything I feel isn't always a good feeling but I will take it over feeling nothing at all. It is kind of like a deep tissue massage. It might be painful at the time but it is necessary to get the knots out.
Looking back over the past year I see that I have come a long way. It may not seem like it from an outsiders perspective... I am still going to school and living with my parents but the progress is on the inside. I have really grown personally in a way that I never thought possible. I am starting to think less, step out of my comfort zone a little more everyday, and I am seeing that the world is not such a scary place after all. Fear has been the ultimate ruler of my life for a long time, but I am finally figuring out how to fight back. The battle against fear is not over, nor will it be anytime soon, but I refuse to ever let it completely take over my life again. Cheers to another year!