I just got home from an awesome cooking class from a local restaurant called Tsuda's. The class was on Indian cooking and healing and I learned about a little something called Ayurveda. What is Ayurveda? Well it's hard to explain so I guess that is what Wikipedia is for...This is what Mr. Wiki has to say about it...Ayurveda (Sanskrit: आयुर्वेद; Āyurveda, the "science of life") Ayurvedic medicine is a system of traditional medicine native to the Indian subcontinent and practiced in other parts of the world as a form of alternative medicine. In Sanskrit, the word ayurveda consists of the wordsāyus, meaning "longevity", and veda, meaning "related to knowledge" or "science". Evolving throughout its history, ayurveda remains an influential system of medicine in South Asia.[3
I love learning about different cultures, foods, and practices of medicine and health. The food we prepared was excellent and I just want to dive deep into learning more about Indian spices and culture. Because there are so many different spices used in Indian cooking I often find myself intimidated by it. I am an indecisive person so a cuisine that offers an abundance of spice options leaves me feeling a bit overwhelmed...but the taste is so worth it, and I can't wait to cook with more of these spices.
Speaking of learning...the head chef and part owner of the restaurant was the one teaching this class...and I may have just opened an opportunity for an internship. She said to come back in a couple of days to fill out an application and talk with her and Alex ( the other owner ). This sounds great but there are two problems here. #1 I might be leaving soon. #2 I can't see myself going in there asking to talk to them without making a stammering fool of myself. I never get to do anything I am passionate about because when it comes to things I am passionate about it is then that I freeze up the most. I care so much about it that I freeze like a deer in the headlights. Passion to me cannot be expressed through words. (spoken words ) The only way I can express it is through action but when it comes to interviews...people usually don't let me get that far. It is a very discouraging feeling that I experience all too often. I am a horrible people person. Like, really, really horrible.
I can't stop thinking about what a great opportunity an internship would be. Unfortunately it is bad timing and I need to learn how to talk like a big girl. *sigh* I really hate my brain. Really, really hate it. Is there a diagnosis for this besides nut job?