Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Scared

It would be a lie if I said I wasn't afraid of moving to Germany right now. I am not your average Army wife. I don't have kids yet, I am not into gossip, and I still have goals and ambitions of my own. Of course I want to support my husband but that doesn't mean I have to let my dreams die right? I guess what I am trying to say is that I am afraid to get to Germany and have nothing to do. Sure I could work at the PX, or the commissary but that is 4 years of going nowhere toward my goal. There will be no internships, and no culinary school to attend. What if I just get stuck in the time warp...what if time just stays still. What if I feel lonely? I know my husband will be there...but he is going to be busy. What if he is too busy for me? I won't have friends to occupy free time, or family to visit with.

I'm scared.

2 comments:

  1. That's when it's time and important to make new friends. Network yourself through sports, i.e., bowling league maybe, or church, etc. Once you make those friendships you should feel more comfortable. Doesn't hurt to pray about your fears too. I will be praying for you constantly....and missing you constantly. You are my daughter, but also my best "bud" too.

    Love ya..Madre

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  2. That's actually how I feel about living in Mississippi. You said everything so perfectly. I feel like I AM stuck in a time warp, and life is going on outside of this bubble and I'm not a part of it. I moved here five months ago, my husband starts his new job on Monday, and I'm afraid to get a job because I'm scared I'll be even more stuck here than I already am. I just tell myself: at least I'm with my husband. And I'm hoping that that will always be enough.

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