Wednesday, February 3, 2010

For Real?

“We all really liked you.”

Those words continued to play over, and over in my head. They liked me? What?

My luck finally changed for the better yesterday. Or perhaps God was just teaching me patience. Either way, I received a very unexpected phone call.

I was on my way home from school, when my phone began to ring. Hmm must be Eric. I thought as I glanced down at my phone. Unfortunately for Eric I had just watched the episode of Oprah about not talking on your phone while driving… and was not going to answer it. Oprah would surely find out, and sick one of her cocker spaniels on me…or maybe Gale. To my surprise the name Hubby ( Eric’s cell phone name in my address book ) did not pop up in it’s usual place.  It was a 916 number, but it wasn’t Eric. I didn’t recognize the number at first…but then I remembered that it was the number of the fitness studio I had just shadowed at on Monday. Sorry Oprah, this call I had to take, I don’t have “people” to take my phone calls for me. I nervously picked up the call assuming I may not be going in tomorrow. Maybe her clients cancelled on her, or maybe I just totally blew it and they hate me.

“Hello?”

“Hi Amber?”

“Yep”

“Hi this is ***** from Guiding Fitness how are you?”

“Good how are you?”

“Good…I was calling to talk to you about something, do you have a minute?” I could sense a bit of seriousness in her voice.

Oh lord, what did I do.

“Yea” I said as cheerfully as possible.

“Great, so my husband and I sat down and had a good talk, well and everyone else in Guiding Fitness…”

Great..here it comes. Brace yourself for the blow. They don’t want you back.

“And we were discussing who was going to replace me when I go on maternity leave…and well.. we all really liked you.”

Wait what? No, I think you meant to say you really don’t like me.

“I think the main thing is though that we have to get you talking more.”

Just talk more..simple…right? I can do that.

“Yea definitely” I said laughing.

I was in such disbelief that the rest of the conversation is a bit of a blur. I don’t think I could continue to quote it accurately so in a brief summery; she continued to talk to me about what I would be doing by taking her place, and what needed to be done to teach me how to do so.

I still can’t believe it. It is such a surreal feeling. I feel like I won the lottery…well In my eyes it is even better than that. I finally get to do what I want to do. Granted I still have the opportunity to jack it all up, and the negative head chatter is trying to take over my thoughts, but for now I am not going to let it. I just want to let the positive thoughts flow through my mind for once. 

I am really looking forward to going in today, but now I am even more nervous because this raises the expectations of me even higher. The pressure is on. Pray for me.

10 comments:

  1. Wow! I know this means a lot to you. Once you get used to talking it will all come naturally!

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  2. Amber; So great, see I knew you could do it! This is what you have worked toward so walk with a lighter step and keep smiling. This is your ticket, and you can write it the way you want to. Thank Him, and learn and have fun!

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  3. So glad this happened to you! And yes...do not let the mind games mess with you. It's like the devil and it won't stay away. I will pray for you as I have been doing. xoxoxo

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  4. WOohoo!!!!

    Soooo thanks so much for the recipe ideas...I was drooling! Cant wait to try them out!

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  5. Hey, congratulations! That's really cool that you get to do what you love. That makes work all the more fun.

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  6. Thanks so much guys!

    Oh and Amanda- no problem about the recipes :) Let me know how it goes if you try them!

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